Wow... its been sooooooo long!!!! a picture speaks a thousand words.. so here's several thousand of them.. :)

Enzo has started on semi solids.. nanny started him on oatmeal cereals on monday.. and today.. i fed him apples!!! hehe... well... it seemed too sour for him, but he liked it aniwayz.. :)

here's a vid of him.. laffing at me.. :p

Vote!!!!

I submitted Enzo's pict in some football fanatic contest... do give him a boost by voting for him ya!!! he's #019 submitted by michelle ng.. :) vote as many times as u can and stand to win a samsumg 26" LCD TV!!! good luck!!!

Bzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Wow.. juz realised that the last time i posted was LAST YEAR!!! lol... ever since i went back to sch, i've realli been swamped!!!! by pple, by work, by stress!!!! How i wish i am a SAHM!!! yurk... guess that's not gonna happen anytime soon... aniwayz.. i am still having fun with enzo in the evening, and over the weekends... even brought him for a studio shoot.... (tagged along when hubert gorgor went to shoot the mag cover.. hehe... )

Here I am... the uncle din take many shots of me... prob cos there's nothing much i can do yet but to sit and smile.. :)

See my cool and handsome model gor gor hugo!!!

Taaaadaaaa!!! my cutest hubert gor gor!!!

Happy Birthday Auntie Mavis!!!

Wow!!! What a busy week!!! As usual, we went to visit Grandma on wed... Enzo was given an icecream for the 1st time... given.. but not fed... hehehehehe.... thurs and fri was boring for enzo... he had to stay at the nanny's cos mommy had to work... but he did enjoy his shopping trip at robinsons juz cos 嬷嬷 wanted to get something on the last day of the sale... not juz something.. she spent over 300 bucks.. v unlike the usual 嬷嬷.. hehe... muz be the magical powers of the post xmas sale... :p

we met aunti cindy, uncle james, and auntie ling yesterday... first thing uncle james said was, "he's so cute its worth the trip down" ... hmm... what did that mean?? aniwayz.. enzo got a new pair of shoes from auntie cindy and uncle james... and oh.. did i mention??? auntie cindy is 10 weeks preggie!!!!!!!! WooHoo!!!! I'm so happy.... she on the other hand, has no appetite and seems rather tired... oh well.... hope things will be better for her..... :)

then we met auntie mavis and uncle alvin, and or cos leo gor got for dinner... it's auntie mavis's BIRTHDAY!!! we went crazy taking neo prints... something enzo did for the 1st time, something daddy and mommy havent done in a looooooooooong time.. it was such fun!!! highlight of the night boi.. will upload the prints once i've got it scanned.. :)

Yum!!!

Oops!!! BUSTED!!!

I got a lil bored shopping so i posed for the camera!! :)

Lil me zzzing on a rainny night... but mommy had to go collect some stuff, so she dressed me up as if it was winter... Zzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Here I am on Leo gorgor's bouncer!! :)

It has been a busy and fun xmas.... though we spent xmas juz the 3 of us... xmas eve and xmas eve's eve was loud and hot!!! well.. not realli hot.. but it was loud... had a bbq gathering at Jun Yuan pri sch, and xmas party at uncle james's house on xmas eve.. its enzo's first xmas and i'm pretty sure he had fun playing with other babies, and the uncles and aunties... :) and oh... leo gor gor was there too!!!

look @ me in the jersey when i was 6 weeks old.. and look @ me now!!!!! woo hoo!!!

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAL!!!

here's me all dressed for the party..

Here's daddy and i.. (ps. uncle alvin was the last to notice that daddy was wearing the same top as i was!!!)

Its me, enzo potter.. silly baby me scratched myself again...

Here's me trying to look coy and handsome.. hehe..

call me warp or perverse.. but i caught enzo pooing again.. lol..



enzo has been going to the nanny's for a month now.. he seems to enjoy it.. i miss him when he's there.. but i also get some myself time to do my stuff... there's so much to be done... so much unpacking to do... and hols are gonna be over soon!!! urgh... guess i muzen slack no more and start being constructive!!!!! :p

Merry Xmas..

Brought baby Enzo to town to take photos with the xmas lights yesterday.. BUT... it was raining the whole day, we were bz planning our route juz so we can keep out of the rain... aniwayz.. had fun still.. with leo gor gor, uncle al and auntie mavis... :)

uncle al, auntie mavis, leo and enzo.... 一年一个啊！！！

enzo jumping to match leo.. :p

J-pop enzo.. hehe..

video of enzo chatting with daddy the night b4 at granny's.. :)

(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zh9myr6LN6U)

we went on a short trip out today... we brought enzo's changing mat, and a bottle of milk.. that was it.. i was pleasantly surprised at the amount of things we needed now... we used to bring so much stuff.. now... travel light!!! :)

i've been spending like nobody's biz.. bot 2 pairs of jeans, cos still cant fit into any of my old ones.. :( realli wonder how long it'll take for me to lose the remaining 22kg... sigh... but saving grace is, no one will notice me as long as i'm with enzo.. hehe...

here's some magical moments of the lil one.. :)

realise babies are seldom seen in black? here's my cool rocker baby!!! :)

Happy Enzo in walker..

Enzo getting a lil impatient while mommy and daddy eat.. hehe

Enzo's best friend...

Enzo had a best friend waiting for him even before he was born... His name is leo, aka leo gor gor.. Leo is around 5 months older than enzo and is also abt 5 kgs heavier.. lol.. leo gor gor is a big baby.. so big that we had to compare them when enzo was abt 3 weeks old (proof below).. leo gor gor and enzo meet almost every week... we hang out together, shop together, eat together.. cant wait for them to play together... we even have a plan.. when they are older, leo gor gor will come sleep over for a weekend, and leave his daddy and mommy alone to spend couple time together... and same goes for enzo.. hehe... wonder if i'll miss him too much then...

"David and kind Goliath"..

Shopping at marina sq after HK exhibition..

juz brought enzo back from the nanny's.. he was pooping so i decided to capture it on vid.. lol..



took a pic of enzo on my princess chair a coupla days ago.. here's my lil prince on the couch.. :)

going back in time...

your first ever photo..

while mommy was burping u last night when u woke up at 3am for ur feed, which u dun realli do usually, i had a flash back of the first night we brought u home.. daddy and i were so tired and lost because we did not know what u wanted when u cried... we tried feeding u, then put u into bed, but u refused to sleep... lil did we know that at that time, u only liked sleeping in the day.. so daddy carried you since 4am and walked u ard the house, telling you every lil thing abt this home of yours.. tour de la casa.. soon, u followed daddy and i and started to zzz at night... we slowly understood ur every cry and came to sooth you when u did... i hope to be the best mommy i could ever be... thank u for giving me this chance to love u, lil enzo... muackies... and bite bite on ur chubby cheeks.. :)

This is lil enzo, the first night he came home... :) look how tiny he is!!!!! awwwwww....

the next morning when u were tanning in the sun.. :)

and here's u holding ur bottle on day 12.. :)

you first modelling job.. hehe.. lotsa mommies learnt how to bathe their babies by watching u..

Pain Pain...

Enzo took his first 5in1 jab today... He screamed once and that's it.. my brave lil boy with thick thighs.. lol... i was more apprehensive then i would be if i were the one taking the jab... dr winston was cool, he manage to feed Enzo his one mouthful ($99 for one mouthful!!) of rota virus vaccination... i tried his method out when feeding Enzo his med to prevent fever and it worked!!! WooHoo!!! and btw.. he is a whopping 7.16kg and 60cm 'long' !!

Bought a walker and a high chair abt a week ago.. put it up today and got lil Enzo to sit in it.. :) he loved it.. but shorts legs he has, he couldnt even reach the mat.. keke... here's him in the walker.. :)

and here's him having woken up from his nap this afternoon...

I juz realised how time flies... it was juz a few days ago when i first saw enzo, first carried him, first passed his fragile body over to his dad whom at that moment, didnt know how to pick him up from the TMC's cot... and suddenly, last night, he was able to juz pick him up from my arms as though enzo was a big boi.... enzo's grown realli stiff... i never knew when that happened... but i guess soon, enzo will be sitting, crawling, standing and walking....

here's enzo dozing off during his first Formula One driving lesson.. :)

worried...

Enzo is refusing to drink... :( I seriously dunno what's wrong with him... he seems alright though, chatty as ever, still smiling and laffing... his baby talk is getting louder than ever... but y doesn't he wanna drink???? Something muz be wrong.... sigh..........

aniwayz.. here's a pic of him taken this morning, smiling for the cam in his retro-looking sleepsuit...

Brought Enzo out on Sunday to celebrate his "lao ma's" birthday... we had sooooo much food... food was great but as usual, my er gu was grumbling away... complaining that the place my dad picked was too noisy for her twin grandchild when the place she picked last year was far worst with tone death pple singing the damn karaoke the whole night long... poor dad juz sat there quietly and even paid for her meal!!


Enzo was sleeping fine.... my well behaved good boi.. :)



Enzo wore his new Ralph Lauren romper.. dun think he will fit it the next time we wanna go out... think we should bring him out on weekdays too... otherwise he has too many nice clothes that will go to waste...

Having Enzo with me makes the flowers prettier, the moon brighter, the summer cooler and even loud noise bearable... :) He makes me happy... la la la la laaaaa....

And oya!!! Enzo turns 3 months old today!!! woo hoo!!!

sad...

one of the babies in our gang fell from the sarong a coupla days back... had a huge bruise on his face... stayed a night at the hospital and was discharge the next day... he momma was traumatised, which momma wouldnt... thankfully, he's recovering well.... sigh... we muz be realli careful with our lil ones... they are realli far tooooooooo precious....

Enzo seems to have an itch on his scalp.. lol... nah.. i doubt it... but its still pretty adorable... :) he's a happy baby in the morning... :)

We, (Elaine, Jen, moi, Rainnie, May and Jamie) had our lil gathering on Wed.. venue courtesy of Jen.. (her place is big!!).. She ordered KFC for us too... but most were too engrossed with the babies to eat.. hehe...

some magical moments...

oya... darius stole lil ning xuan from enzo.. that's y enzo was crying away... :p

Enzo has grown so much since the day i met him... sometimes i realli wish he would slow down so i can savour those precious moments...



he has learnt to look me in the eyes, telling me how much he loves me, how much he misses me when i pick him up... he has learnt to smile back when i smile at him, learnt to sit up straight instead of leaning on me, learnt to reply when i talk to him...... so much he has learnt...



cherish these moments i muz!!!

Enzo, mommie loves u to bits!!! muacks... stay cute always... :)

Life has been good to me.. from the time i left this place till now when i return, I have been rewarded with lotsa kind blessings.... i had the time of my life when i got preggie, when everyone treated me like a princess, meeting Enzo for the first time was great.. although he didn't smile at me, it was love at first sight... i've met him several times in black and white, but that was the first i saw him in color... fun fun fun....

i'll continue to blog here... tell you how life's changed, share how Enzo's progressed... I love him.. i know he loves me too... :)

did u know?

no one realli knows me but at all... i may seem outgoing and talk lots at times.. but things abt ME, i never speak... the reason behind this, i am not so sure myself... perhaps, i dun like the feeling of being transparent... having pple see thru one makes one vulnerable.. and being in control seems to have a distinctive ascendancy in my life...

thus my thoughts are always within me.. deep within... history or future, goes to the grave IN me..

Change


changes i am fond of as stagnation breeds boredom.. and u should know that boredom kills me.. recently, much change has taken place in me and others round me. as ignorant as one can be, yet in another instance one proves i am always not wrong.. my expectations of oneself has yet reached another new height. pulling myself from all that i am familiar with, i challenged myself with a hons degree in mathematics. tough as it may be, i strive to get above 90 in all assignments (and does *proud*)...it reminded me of my crying when i scored 97 for my A-math exam when i was 16 and got chided by mrs Julia, whose 'a' and 8, i still can decipher. i have also recently grown to be a nicer person. i seriously think so.. still a bitch i am, but i am a nicer bitch now.. oxymoronic i realised, but a good bitch's gotta do what a good bitch's gotta do...
i have more yet less time for myself... am not gonna try to adjust i guess, as before i could, life would have taken me someplace else..........

Loves you unconditionally..

i will always question its existance.. truth is, i dun think it exist.. call me a skeptic, but even when he promised to love you no matter what, it came with a condition.. GOD loves his children.. he saves those he loves... and those he loves... believes in him... so, he loves on the condition of you believing in him.. so how so does he love unconditionally?

mothers love their children in that similar way too... does a mother love any other child apart from her own? maybe only mother T can enlighten..

i love only on one condition.. i love those who love me first.. numb is my heart as stale is my soul...

dr skeptismo

de flight of the bumble bee..

IT makes me juz wanna ramble on.. about nothing, about no one... well.. about no one it most isn't.. it makes me wanna tell on everyone! is that what the bees were busy doing? buzzing about each other, like what's happening at the offices... keeping themselves busy with other people's business?? if that's the case, then let exodus be my sound..

Insatiable..

my thirst for love is insatiable.. love as love it is, and nothing more.. however so, the word is so abstract that i know not when i am loved.. wrecked as a child i was not, wrecked by men i wasn't.. still feeling so i am, weird so it is... depressed so i am...

Emma Lisa

hmm... ever wonder what mona lisa was smiling about? ever wonder what life she led behind that face? dun stop wondering...

its been some time since.. so much has changed and so much has happened.. but one thing remains unaltered.. i'm no less alive than I was before.. future holds more than I deemed possible.. but anyhow, looking forward I am..

the end..

the end of an era.. a magnificient time...
the beginning to new wonderments of life..
together and apart..
then till now...

De place

I lie in bed, waiting for sleep to come and take me away..
take me away to a place where i gaze into a sea of white..
a place where i smile, and people smile back..
a place where no one cares even if u look like a supermodel..
a place where money does not equate sins..
a place where love is embedded in every corner..
a place where worries have no place..
a place where men truly love their women..
a place where men are faithful..

De place does not exist......

well, another someone said i sounded like an ad for some depression clinic... to think of it... there's some truth in that.. but lately, things have started to clear up.. much to my dismay.. one might juz miss being depressed for a while... saving grace - it still comes and go....

oh well... maybe one day, i'll juz get used to being that santa claus, on prozac, in disneyland, getting laid! :)

Someone once told me that I sound like a prozac advertisement. Well, let life be my prozac.. May i one day be Santa Claus on Prozac, at Disney Land, getting laid!!!

there is neither happiness nor misfortune in this world, there is merely comparision between one state and another, nothing more. onli someone who has suffered the deepest misfortune is capable of experiencing the heights of felicity. one must needs have wished to die, to know how good it is to live...

your gift to me

your knife impaled my chest, only to find a hollow capsule whose heart had been given away.. thus saving my miserable life from draining away as the blood dries up like a lake in a drought.......

you don't owe no one any explanation... you owe it to yourself, and you owe it to GOD...
it is your conscience.. and if you can live with it... ...

you survive

when the world turns on you...

you still smile, though not the same smile, you still have one hanging on your face...
you still sleep, though without the usual sweet dreams, you still sleep...
you still walk, though not in your usual stride, you still get places...
you still live, though not with the usual zest, you manage to survive...

The BIBLE that is most tattered and torn belongs to someone who is not..

everything u do is stained with your betrayal.. your being nice is guilt.. you frown because you compare.. your absence is a lie.. you're tired as you juggle.. you're sorry but its late.. what more do you want from me? I trusted you with my life and these are my returns.. a heart so broken would never heal.. leave the dagger in me and leave it be...

The Merry Monkey

Monkeys are fun and loving persons who are always cheerful and energetic. They are very clever. Give a monkey a boring book to read and he'll turn it into a Musical. Better yet, he'll invite everyone to see it free! That's how talented, creative and generous monkeys usually are.

If you go to a party, you'll find Monkeys at the center of attention. Their charm and humor is the key to their popularity. Sociable and diplomatic as they may appear, they can be deceptive sometimes – they hide their opinions of others beneath their friendliness. But they don't hide their emotion. You can probably tell how a monkey is feeling from miles away - he wants everyone to know how happy or depressed he is.

Monkey people are very good at problem-solving. Wherever you are, whoever you may be, if you've got a problem pick up the phone and dial-a-Monkey. Monkeys know how to listen closely and work out solutions at the same time. And because Monkeys' curiosity, they usually have a great thirst for knowledge. Still they have few scruples - they could be unreasonable sometimes, and they have the ability to persuade themselves and everyone around them to believe that they are doing the right things. Some say monkeys are self-centered, some say they are opportunistic, some say they are guileful, but monkeys couldn't care less - because they are also indifferent.

The monkey has a good chance of becoming famous or well-known. Whatever he does, his charm and luck will make him successful. As friends, Monkeys are both loyal and devoted, as lovers, they can be passionate and yet flighty - they can fall easily in love but will get tired of the relationship and look for another.

Most Monkeys have one fetish - FOOD. They are not pigs, they don't stuff themselves with food, instead, they just have this habit of eating snacks whenever they like, and wherever they like. And one last truth about monkey people is, they adore bananas. Go visit your monkey friend's kitchen, I bet you will find some bananas there.

Compatibility
(1 - least compatible, 100 - most compatible)

Rat -90 - One of the best combinations.
Ox -74 - Nice. They are compatible and stable.
Tiger -81 - These two make eager loves.
Rabbit -73 - Amusing.
Dragon -82 - Despite the differences, they'll do just fine.
Snake -57 - Perhaps, it depends on the monkey.
Horse -31 - Not advised.
Goat -65 - Oh well, why not?!
Monkey -85 - Great companions and total complicity.
Rooster -72 - Probably, who knows
Dog -67 - With reservation. The dog might suffer.
Pig -81 - This could work. They admire each other.

rule number one: never cheat on someone unless its for someone really hot!!!

I am selfish and an egoist, and as such, I do not think of what others would do in my position, only of what I intend to do. On the day we met, I wagered all my chances of happiness on your love, that the day I staked all my future on having you. That has been my life. Now, I no longer think anything. All I can tell myself is that fate has turned against me, that I expected to win heaven and I have lost it. It happens every day that a gambler loses not only what she has, but also what she does not have.

I am as much a detective as you are a liar...
Though I must admit defeat as I am not as much a bitch as you are a JERK!

to cheat the supernatural..

if what goes around comes around, cheating on someone with one who is cheating on his other half means your bad karma is void?

what goes around, keeps going.......

books = men

people say you should not judge a book by its cover... but i did.. and it stung.. how abt the reviews penned by the critics? they seem to be experts, they seem to know what they are doing.. but realising that their paycheck only arrives after any published review, makes you think twice about your confidence in them.. besides, where does such find time to really know the book well enough to comment?

hence, i shall rip off all covers and hold my peace in fear of endorsing the wrong "product"...

Real

All you’ve said seem rooted in my heart
I loved you deep, hence the pain

Memories afloat in my empty chest
Is everyone in the world as silly as I

Asking will not do anyone good
I can feel the “someone else”

Waiting for the smile to change into tears
Lost love has never been more real

Too many questions but,
What happens when I know the answer

Well, you don’t have to be talented to be patient
You only need to have loved the wrong man

Heartbreak is more real than happiness
And why does love insult me so

I can’t recall the many many times
I relent when I see u

Loneliness is more real than a hug
Love loses all senses

Have I been too selfish
To reject the lonely days ahead

I can’t let go, neither do I see our future
So… Such imperfection is the true face of love…

the nomad baby..

i am just a baby.. but i find myself in many places.. some which i have never ever been.. one day i am here, another i am there.. they all seem to love me.. but why do they not love me to keep me long enough? long enough for me to know their touch, their smile, long enough for me to know their smell, their sound.. i want to stay.. somewhere where i know them more than anything else..

happiness..

why dun you just leave me alone? you are the reason one feels the unhappiness... without you, where's the unhappiness?

get out!

when depression hits, you kinda not know how to deal with it.. y did it get to you? is it something you can control? pple say that its your choice how you want things to affect you.. i say its easier said than done... cheers to CRAPDOM!

the sound

the sound of one hand clapping is a sound only one ear can hear...

gullible is

gullible is being easily deceived and tricked
gullible is the willingness to believe everything others say
gullible is trusting everything you hear
gullible is behaving as though you were born yesterday

gullible is she...

me... Ms typical Gemini

A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bore you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your bestfriend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight in shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiacs. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess. She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow. She could communicate in more than 1 language, a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surroundings more than at work. She never feel contented with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

something abt my mary...

i love the way you make funny noises with your mouth..
i love the way you imitate sir fergy..
i love the way you remove the spring onions from all my food..
i love the way you drive ever so slowly when i'm in the car..
i love the way you are always planning for the future..
i love the way you include me in your future..
i love the way you are willing to try harder if something is not right..
i love the way you never fail to surprise me ever so often..
i love the way you smile when you're feeling awkward..
i love the way you get worried if you feel i am not as happy as can be..

i think i have fallen in love with you...

true or false?

all is fair in love and war...

when he cries...

to see a man break into tears... sends a warp feeling to the depths of my heart... something indescribable, something not felt in a boundless period.. but does this speak to all men, or only that who means something in the heart of that soul?

...

never bite off more than you can chew... does that not mean you shouldn't shoot for the stars? to set your targets on par with your ability... so... where's the excellence in that?

its amazing how something so small is able to compete and outdo one so vast.. but perhaps its the concentration of the resources that grants us the upperhand.. however, the depletion of such resources will mean that all have to come together and meet the target instead of diversifying, which weakens the strength of the contingent...