did u know?

no one realli knows me but at all... i may seem outgoing and talk lots at times.. but things abt ME, i never speak... the reason behind this, i am not so sure myself... perhaps, i dun like the feeling of being transparent... having pple see thru one makes one vulnerable.. and being in control seems to have a distinctive ascendancy in my life...

thus my thoughts are always within me.. deep within... history or future, goes to the grave IN me..

Change


changes i am fond of as stagnation breeds boredom.. and u should know that boredom kills me.. recently, much change has taken place in me and others round me. as ignorant as one can be, yet in another instance one proves i am always not wrong.. my expectations of oneself has yet reached another new height. pulling myself from all that i am familiar with, i challenged myself with a hons degree in mathematics. tough as it may be, i strive to get above 90 in all assignments (and does *proud*)...it reminded me of my crying when i scored 97 for my A-math exam when i was 16 and got chided by mrs Julia, whose 'a' and 8, i still can decipher. i have also recently grown to be a nicer person. i seriously think so.. still a bitch i am, but i am a nicer bitch now.. oxymoronic i realised, but a good bitch's gotta do what a good bitch's gotta do...
i have more yet less time for myself... am not gonna try to adjust i guess, as before i could, life would have taken me someplace else..........