did u know?

no one realli knows me but at all... i may seem outgoing and talk lots at times.. but things abt ME, i never speak... the reason behind this, i am not so sure myself... perhaps, i dun like the feeling of being transparent... having pple see thru one makes one vulnerable.. and being in control seems to have a distinctive ascendancy in my life...

thus my thoughts are always within me.. deep within... history or future, goes to the grave IN me..

Change


changes i am fond of as stagnation breeds boredom.. and u should know that boredom kills me.. recently, much change has taken place in me and others round me. as ignorant as one can be, yet in another instance one proves i am always not wrong.. my expectations of oneself has yet reached another new height. pulling myself from all that i am familiar with, i challenged myself with a hons degree in mathematics. tough as it may be, i strive to get above 90 in all assignments (and does *proud*)...it reminded me of my crying when i scored 97 for my A-math exam when i was 16 and got chided by mrs Julia, whose 'a' and 8, i still can decipher. i have also recently grown to be a nicer person. i seriously think so.. still a bitch i am, but i am a nicer bitch now.. oxymoronic i realised, but a good bitch's gotta do what a good bitch's gotta do...
i have more yet less time for myself... am not gonna try to adjust i guess, as before i could, life would have taken me someplace else..........

Loves you unconditionally..

i will always question its existance.. truth is, i dun think it exist.. call me a skeptic, but even when he promised to love you no matter what, it came with a condition.. GOD loves his children.. he saves those he loves... and those he loves... believes in him... so, he loves on the condition of you believing in him.. so how so does he love unconditionally?

mothers love their children in that similar way too... does a mother love any other child apart from her own? maybe only mother T can enlighten..

i love only on one condition.. i love those who love me first.. numb is my heart as stale is my soul...

dr skeptismo

de flight of the bumble bee..

IT makes me juz wanna ramble on.. about nothing, about no one... well.. about no one it most isn't.. it makes me wanna tell on everyone! is that what the bees were busy doing? buzzing about each other, like what's happening at the offices... keeping themselves busy with other people's business?? if that's the case, then let exodus be my sound..

Insatiable..

my thirst for love is insatiable.. love as love it is, and nothing more.. however so, the word is so abstract that i know not when i am loved.. wrecked as a child i was not, wrecked by men i wasn't.. still feeling so i am, weird so it is... depressed so i am...

Emma Lisa

hmm... ever wonder what mona lisa was smiling about? ever wonder what life she led behind that face? dun stop wondering...

its been some time since.. so much has changed and so much has happened.. but one thing remains unaltered.. i'm no less alive than I was before.. future holds more than I deemed possible.. but anyhow, looking forward I am..